Paranoid

Went to Haize's birthday dinner tonight. I go to these things only when I care about the people enough, otherwise I'd rather stay at home and read. It was great to see all the women that I so love and admire.

I came home and checked email for work, and it turned out that I might not be getting enough hours as I thought in the coming two months....need to clarify with them again. But for right now, I am feeling a little paranoid about finances. I am wondering if I should find another job. Things is; few other part time jobs pay as well as LAUSD does. At the same time, I need to work more hours, not that I want to. Big difference.

I am just feeling kind of bummed out and problem-saturated at the moment, so I am going to try to relax and just go to bed. Hopefully tomorrow, when I wake up, I am going to move out of this problem-saturated mindset and move into a solution focused place where it's full of hope and energy.

I give thanks to the universe for what I have today, and for what's to come tomorrow.

A-men.