A Blur
The past two months feel like a blur.
Lets see, what do I remember? I was working hard in July; didn't really take a break like I planned to back in June. The stress of dealing with my employer paying me late. Adjusting to life back at the center and getting to know my clients. My roommate Susan went to Brazil. Nece came back from Europe. Rob quit his job and started freelancing. I hated collecting data at schools but I went all the time anyway.
In August, data collection slowed down and I started to do coding at home. Hated going into the office for meetings and still was not paid. Finally got paid near the end of August for all the hours. During the first two weeks of August, struggled to get grounded with supervision and being in the new group. Went to the spa with Carole. Connected with Paula, Ashley and Moon. And of course, enjoyed many conversations with Nece. I was working less and slowing down. Those days felt like a daze. Rob has been super busy, and our love grows stronger by the day. Went to see the movie The Village and liked it. Started taking different vitamins and intestinal formulas. Went to see Mavis in Orlando. Worried over dad and Andrew and Peggy and Kenny, feeling the blood connection. Maintained constant contact with my family and friends in Taiwan, of course. Read more romance novels and all sorts of other books. Freaked out about being a therapist.
And that takes us to this weekend. I just went to Leslee's holding ceremony yesterday and it was beauitful. Just soaking in that feminine love and beauty. Strange that I have found my sisters in ways that I had not imagined possible. Went to see Johanna afterwards and walked on the beach for a good hour. Rob had left to go to a Dave Matthew's concert with his dad, and the boys are gone, too. I am sitting alone in the house, typing away. I got a call this afternoon that Paula is calling a circle two weeks from now.
Ah.
This is beautiful. I am ready to travel with my sisters.
Oh yeah, and school started last week. I went on Monday but not Wednesday. Still not quite liking my school experience. The work week is coming again tomorrow. Tomorrow, tomorrow. There is always a tomorrow. Tomorrow.
But for right now, I feel content, held, beautiful, slightly lonely, and joyful.
Not a bad combo at all.
Lets see, what do I remember? I was working hard in July; didn't really take a break like I planned to back in June. The stress of dealing with my employer paying me late. Adjusting to life back at the center and getting to know my clients. My roommate Susan went to Brazil. Nece came back from Europe. Rob quit his job and started freelancing. I hated collecting data at schools but I went all the time anyway.
In August, data collection slowed down and I started to do coding at home. Hated going into the office for meetings and still was not paid. Finally got paid near the end of August for all the hours. During the first two weeks of August, struggled to get grounded with supervision and being in the new group. Went to the spa with Carole. Connected with Paula, Ashley and Moon. And of course, enjoyed many conversations with Nece. I was working less and slowing down. Those days felt like a daze. Rob has been super busy, and our love grows stronger by the day. Went to see the movie The Village and liked it. Started taking different vitamins and intestinal formulas. Went to see Mavis in Orlando. Worried over dad and Andrew and Peggy and Kenny, feeling the blood connection. Maintained constant contact with my family and friends in Taiwan, of course. Read more romance novels and all sorts of other books. Freaked out about being a therapist.
And that takes us to this weekend. I just went to Leslee's holding ceremony yesterday and it was beauitful. Just soaking in that feminine love and beauty. Strange that I have found my sisters in ways that I had not imagined possible. Went to see Johanna afterwards and walked on the beach for a good hour. Rob had left to go to a Dave Matthew's concert with his dad, and the boys are gone, too. I am sitting alone in the house, typing away. I got a call this afternoon that Paula is calling a circle two weeks from now.
Ah.
This is beautiful. I am ready to travel with my sisters.
Oh yeah, and school started last week. I went on Monday but not Wednesday. Still not quite liking my school experience. The work week is coming again tomorrow. Tomorrow, tomorrow. There is always a tomorrow. Tomorrow.
But for right now, I feel content, held, beautiful, slightly lonely, and joyful.
Not a bad combo at all.
posted by Julia C. at
Sunday, August 29, 2004
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