And then.....

I slept for 11 hours.

Thank God, I really needed that. I have been operated on 5 or 6 hours of sleep for the past few weeks, and it was just killing me. I am not one that can go on limited sleep for a long time.

So, a pile of work still remains. I have to get on them now. From now until May 26th, life is going to be very stressful with work and school together. The semester is ending; everything is due. Crap.

I have been typing so much that the doctor told me, after the onset of wrist and joint pain for my left hand, that I may be developing carpel tunnel due to overuse of my hand. Oh........but, this, too, shall pass, and all I gotta do is pass. (Rob is so sweet to me. I give thanks to the universe.)

Just talked on the phone with my cousin who is looking for his first job. Lord, the living pain. We all have our own anxieties. Wish there were more that I could do to help him.

So, this is it. As I told my practicum class when we were doing the check in last night: these days, I am mechanically industries most of my waking moments. Occassionaly, such as when I drive my car from destination A to destination B or late at night right before I go to sleep, I feel a tiny voice asking me in my heart: "What are you doing all this for?" Then, all kinds of emotions, grief, in particular, get triggered, and I quickly shelve everything away and go on to the next task. Gotta keep moving. I shall fall to pieces, graciously, at the end of May, and then start back up again in June as I start my internship.

Things are well. I am just confused about certain core issues. But, I am not in a hurry to resolve anything. For now, being industrious will do.

(I am going to Sarah's concert in July! Oh my God!)