Dreams and realizations.......night of full moon

Last night I went out to dinner with Jay, and then Rob came a little bit later. We went to Hurry Curry. It was really nice riding in Jay's convertible with the top down. When we were driving, it just felt so free and open, and it was full moon last night. So very bright. On the way home, I rode with Rob and we were quiet the whole way. Rob was stressed out with work and I just soaking in inner feelings......deep waters these days. It was nice. I started writing again when we got home and Rob went to play video games.

This morning, I woke up and logged my dream in. The anxiety dreams have finally stopped. I am taking it as I am processing whatever needs to be processed out of my system. The dreams I had last night were fragmented, short and sweet. I felt very youthful and free of worry.

What am I going to do today? Maybe, maybe I will go do laundry!! Hmm!

Having tea with Stephen tonight, yay.

-----------------------6 pm-----------------

Television is really something else; I'll tell ya. (Jesus, my head is full of southern accents.....watching the Anna Nicole Smith show on VH1 has really screwed with my brain in more than one way.....don't ask me why I watched it. I don't know. It was just kind of addicting since it was so sensational......ah, now I feel all gross. It was my own fault. I could've watched Frieda. Damn it.)

I didn't do much today. Wrote, wrote, and wrote more. Drank lots of ice tea. Watched part of "Who is the man; who is the woman." Hard to believe that Leslie Cheung has passed away. I grew up with his music, and it was still good when I heard it this afternoon, after all these years.

I am a little kaput now. Wait for Rob to get home and I am gonna go meet Stephen. Yay.

(I should've known better! Why did I watch that awful show? ??? Ai-ya. So gross and I can't believe I participated!)

No matter.