The Mundane

Quite industrious today. Lets see, got up at 6:30am, out the door by 7:15, arrived at the middle school by 8:00, attended the parent meeting, interviewed one parent, nailed down two teachers to schedule interviews, interviewed one teacher, went to Peets to get my favorite iced tea and said hi to N, went and got a smog check, went to Kinkos to send a fax, went to the post office to send off the financial aid forms, went to get cigarettes, came home and paid for the DMV bill to renew my vehicle registration, paid for one traffic ticket also, made calls to various credit card companies to do balance transfers, checked on private student loan informaioin, went through all of my bills and mail. Calculated payment options if I were to pay off all credit card debts in a year and half (before graduation.) Oh my lord the numbers that came out at the end.

Passed out for half an hour on the couch and now I have a massive headache, such is the mundane life of mine in a civilized world. And, the sad thing is, this lifestyle is very privileged, considering that many countries still don't having running water or toilets.

I say that the industrial revolution fucked us all up.

Oh yeah, I filled out an application to start Jungian Psycho-analysis. Alas, I don't think I will be able to afford mental health services if I were to pay off my debt. And trying to pay off the debt in a year and half is seriously challenging my mental health. Chicken and egg. You do the math.

I say that the industrial revolution fucked some of us up, those of us that are poor.

But, can't forget that this lifestyle is very privileged as it is, considering how many people in the world literally starve to death.

Now, you tell me, what is salvation? Why should I believe in an all powerful God if there is undeserved suffering?

(Which, of course, you can't call my credit card debts undeserved suffering. I am just feeling sorry for myself.)

Money is the only thing that stresses me out these days.

I consider myself very lucky, actually.