School is starting in a week
I have had a nice long summer break, and school is starting in a week. I am back at my place, regrouping to get started again soon. Didn't finish all the goals that I set for myself at the start of the break; and oh well, it is what it is.
Rob is taking off in a week and half. We have been fully awaken to all the ramifications of his leavetaking for a week now, having challenging conversations and growing rapidly, together and separate.
Life is good.
I pulled out my old email correspondence with TW friends from 2001 to 2002. My god, I can't believe it was only four years ago that I started on this path of becoming a counselor. My life is so immersed in the study of psychology sometimes I feel like I have been doing this forever. But, it's only been four years. I feel so humbled and amazed that so much growth has happened in four years. My life has completely changed and transformed since I moved to California. I am really growing into my own these days. Feeling the differences. Mind you, it's not that everything is different: I am still me. I still retain all of core qualities; it's how I view the world and how I view what's around me and how I view myself are different. Gosh. Unbelievable. I am so, so, so, so, so grateful.
I also read about parts of my life that brings up a bittersweetness. Wild and crazy days, partying it up, meeting people, caught in confusion and longing. D's name appeared all over the place. He was such a teacher for me; the whole experience with him. I am grateful that we met. I send out good wishes to him and hope that he is thriving somewhere in the world. I really felt connected to him back then and still feel a little sad that our connection did not continue.
But.
Rob is leaving soon. I am about to give my room a major overhaul. School is starting, and I am four months away from my master's degree. God, back in 2001 I wanted to go back to school and didn't know if it was going to happen. And look now.
I am grateful for all things, people, events that led me to where I am today, and I am so humbled by the miracles that had happened so far in my life.
I give thanks to the universe. It's a great day to be alive. (Watch the sun still shining and I close my eyes.)
Rob is taking off in a week and half. We have been fully awaken to all the ramifications of his leavetaking for a week now, having challenging conversations and growing rapidly, together and separate.
Life is good.
I pulled out my old email correspondence with TW friends from 2001 to 2002. My god, I can't believe it was only four years ago that I started on this path of becoming a counselor. My life is so immersed in the study of psychology sometimes I feel like I have been doing this forever. But, it's only been four years. I feel so humbled and amazed that so much growth has happened in four years. My life has completely changed and transformed since I moved to California. I am really growing into my own these days. Feeling the differences. Mind you, it's not that everything is different: I am still me. I still retain all of core qualities; it's how I view the world and how I view what's around me and how I view myself are different. Gosh. Unbelievable. I am so, so, so, so, so grateful.
I also read about parts of my life that brings up a bittersweetness. Wild and crazy days, partying it up, meeting people, caught in confusion and longing. D's name appeared all over the place. He was such a teacher for me; the whole experience with him. I am grateful that we met. I send out good wishes to him and hope that he is thriving somewhere in the world. I really felt connected to him back then and still feel a little sad that our connection did not continue.
But.
Rob is leaving soon. I am about to give my room a major overhaul. School is starting, and I am four months away from my master's degree. God, back in 2001 I wanted to go back to school and didn't know if it was going to happen. And look now.
I am grateful for all things, people, events that led me to where I am today, and I am so humbled by the miracles that had happened so far in my life.
I give thanks to the universe. It's a great day to be alive. (Watch the sun still shining and I close my eyes.)
posted by Julia C. at
Sunday, August 21, 2005
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