Yet again

I find myself reacting uncontrollably inside to a very similar dynamic.

Five days after the flower ceremony, I find it absolutely unbearable to return to supervision. Resentment is at an all time high. Rage. I am thinking about leaving the center all together.

It's not working out. I hate being in this position. I feel very trapped, and I don't trust anyone involved in the situation. I don't feel like anyone's got my back, and I hate losing, even though I am not entirely sure of what I am fighting against.

Angry. Hatred. I have had it.

A part of me doesn't want to leave the center because I feel attached. Another part of me wants to because it's just not working out for me the way it stands right now.

We will see.