Boy O Boy

Don't I feel like the biggest dork in the WHOLE UNIVERSE.

Seriously, no shit, it's just fucking lame. I just saw my first couple ever. I absolutely had no idea what the hell I was doing, and there they were, thinking that they were getting someone experienced. Fucking terrible.

Don't I feel like the biggest dork. Let me know, how do I feel? I feel totally and absolutely lost in this first session: what could I have possibly said that may have helped them to feel a little better before they left? Sloppy, just a fucking sloppy job of it. I know when I have butchered a session. That session was BUTCHERED. There was no flow, no energy, only zigzaging and skirting the issue and we never got to what landed them there in the first place. All just talk talk talk, and I asked some seriously dumb ass questions that did not help to generate solutions at all. I fucking hate it.

Granted, it was the first session, but still! With my indivdiual clients I am usually able to call forth some things that help to shift things at least a little in the first session. So what I have been seeing individuals for four years? I should know how to do things with couples anyway!

Okay, pipe down, me. It's going to take time. I know.

Sigh.